This is why we did not have a happy holiday this year.  Amanda stopped eating in the beginning of December.  After several tests, the only thing that came up was a urinary infection.  The vet gave us antibiotics and some appetite stimulants.  She ate a bit but not much.  The antibiotics were finished after 12 days but she still wasn’t eating enough.

More inconclusive tests, then an ultrasound and appetite stimulants.  Several things were found several treatments tried and failed and me force feeding her 3 times a day. After our vet consulted with a specialist there was nothing else that could be done.  We had to make a decision, keep force feeding her to keep her alive, stop and let her go naturally, or have her put down.  We couldn’t make her suffer, even though it would have meant having her a little longer.  She was too young to die!

I am heart broken!  Just when I think my tears have all dried up, they start again.  I miss her so.  She was my precious little girl.  She slept with me just about every night, curled up against my stomach, with a paw under my hand, one on top and her head on my hand.  If I moved and she couldn’t feel me any more she would put her paw out to make sure she could touch me.  Wonderful in the winter, a bit awkward in the summer but I never discouraged her because I loved being close to her too.

Now it is so hard to sleep without her.  And DJ misses her too.

Mommy will always love you Amanda!